We have weathered the rainy season in Duran. Afternoons make you fear the sun. The sky may be blue, but I do not have the courage to look up. Evenings bring the rain and chill the air to about 80 degrees.
Instead of going out to the bars for my birthday weekend, me, Tom, and Wilfredo go out to the dark roads, to eat chicken and to watch a soccer game in our neighborhood. The Barcelona (Guayaquil's team) game is only on cable tonight, so theres one restaurant that has the game. On a 20 inch TV, there are about 70 men, all wearing the yellow jerseys watching the game. As I am eating a giant plate of rice, patacones, beans, and oven roasten chicken ($1.50 for everything with a coke), I am looking on the wall trying to follow the game. Then GOALLLLLLLLLLLL the place errupts, our team wins 1-0.
Then we walk back home on the dark streets. The dirt roads come alive in the darkness. Noise comes from everywhere, insects and birds, you cant see. Dogs stare territorially. Cats stalk rodents with patience. The puddles are birght as they are illuminated by the street lights. The frogs watch from beneath as you walk by. Crabs tippy toe from pond to puddle. In the rainy season, the roads are full of life.
I hear ¨Daniel!¨from the darkness and walk towards Winky and Negro (more formally, are rarely, called Javier and Andres) who are riding a bike together. Walking, we find about 5 more to their crew. Some siblings, some cousins, its all still confusing to me. There are no parents. No supervision. They are the kids who fight, throw rocks, sware, are wreak havoc at my afterschool program. They are the neglected, the ones in need of friendship and love. Tonight, they roam the streets taking turns riding their communal bicycle looking for something to do. They show me a store with the best choco-bananas. For a second, they are in guiding me. This is their home, their life.
The stars are out tonight, its rare this season and with this pollution. We sit on a some rocks, on the side of the dirt road, about 10 of us by now. When we sit, I look up to some of them, making me forget they are all under 10 years old and Im the adult. This is their home, this is their life. So another Saturday Night, my birthday weekend, looking up at the stars and looking into the puddles in my new home.
April 11, 2010
March 20, 2010
i love that dirty water
swimming in that river, as everyone told me it would, backfired on me.
that nasty brown river called my name again during another rainy season downpour. a couple of us, jumped in, amidst the lighting into the muddy, trash-filled river. what a wonderful place. in a sky of grey, a muck of brown, i could barely see 5 ft in the chaos. I felt like Forrest Gump ¨when there was rain that flew in sideways...and sometimes rain even seemed to come straight up.¨
lets go back to an important fact of the story. that day, my parents sent me in some new shoes, Crocs. almost like sandals, but as Jon told me during Bonarroo, they were perfect for mud and concerts. so with this storm, with the lightning, in the muddy river, i went out in my new shoes.
they were as Jon described. I was outrunning my friends outside the river in the mud, my feet were invincible. to quote the best movie of all time again ¨i could run like the wind blows.¨ with the storm, the water was rising fast, we played a game of tag with a couple kids who were already at the river. as i was dodging being tagged, the river conjured up the its strength and bit my shoe right off of my foot.
i plunged under to find it in the mud, but the water was moving too fast, and the lightning picked up. it was getting dark and we had to leave. i walked away from the river with one, brand new, shoe.
for three straight days, as standard searches go, we went back to the river to look, unsuccessfully. digging up mud stained my fingernails for a day for two. in the mud, we found about 30 bottles of coke, tree limbs, a couple dead fish, and about 20 other shoes. but not mine.
it was a lost cause, and i accepted the fact that i just contributed to another peice of trash in our polluted river.
....
this all happend last month. and last week, one of my friends invited me over to tell mea story. he told me, as Joseph and I were walking past the river, i through a ball of mud at him, then he threw me off a 2 meter cliff, and i landed on that expensive shoe of yours. IT WAS FOUND
after a chicken dinner for everyone in the search party, it would seem like i learned my lesson, right? i know swimming in the river is dumb and i forgot to mention the rash i got on my back too (possibly how i wound up with those amoeba's and worms in my system as well) but then i thought....
the river is where my neighbors go if they want to go swimming. they dont get in their car and drive to Fradette´s or Provencher´s pool. they dont get in the car and do to Hampton Beach, much less do they go to their parents´ lake house. they go in that nasty, dirty, polluted river behind our houses. So Ive got my mind made up, and this year, I will too.
futbol
latin.
community. life.
heat, caged windows, salsa music, futbol
lonely nights, long conversations, looking at the calendar
how many chapters will be in my roller coaster day?
once again, i find myself a stranger in a strange land. but at this point in the year, im pretty well known in my community. im best known for being the ¨gringo en la cancha.¨ that translates to the white dude who plays soccer. futbol. 7 days a week. every day. i play, futbol. but lets start from the beginning...
i first was introduced to futbol in my after school program. every else was doing it. and from anyone who knows me, i fold like oregami under peer pressure. so like a lot of other things in my life, i just took what Keirkegard would call a ¨leap of faith¨and i jumped in head first. and after playing futol a couple days a week, i became addicted.
5 days wasnt enough. I needed to find more games. so i started playing sundays too. on the streets. there is always something on the line. food, drinks, money, and pride. and today, i started a league on saturdays to get my fix in 7 days a week.
and so thats where i spend my free time. and thats how i became to feel like a part of my community. and futbol has opened new doors for me. to friendships. to casas. and to a new vocabulary of trash talking that is centered around ¨tu madre¨.
so futbol is a huge part of my life down here now. and it is how i have gotten to meet my community. and it is why i am periodically turning my head as i am writing this to some of my new names ( dan-yell, dan-i, dan-yell-ito, gringo, jefe, pana, amigo, ñaño) as my new friends pass by and see me through the steel bars of the internet cafe. some stop in. a couple of the younger kids have eagerly watched my type everyword.
i miss home. i miss home a lot. but today i am happy being a stranger in this strange world.
community. life.
heat, caged windows, salsa music, futbol
lonely nights, long conversations, looking at the calendar
how many chapters will be in my roller coaster day?
once again, i find myself a stranger in a strange land. but at this point in the year, im pretty well known in my community. im best known for being the ¨gringo en la cancha.¨ that translates to the white dude who plays soccer. futbol. 7 days a week. every day. i play, futbol. but lets start from the beginning...
i first was introduced to futbol in my after school program. every else was doing it. and from anyone who knows me, i fold like oregami under peer pressure. so like a lot of other things in my life, i just took what Keirkegard would call a ¨leap of faith¨and i jumped in head first. and after playing futol a couple days a week, i became addicted.
5 days wasnt enough. I needed to find more games. so i started playing sundays too. on the streets. there is always something on the line. food, drinks, money, and pride. and today, i started a league on saturdays to get my fix in 7 days a week.
and so thats where i spend my free time. and thats how i became to feel like a part of my community. and futbol has opened new doors for me. to friendships. to casas. and to a new vocabulary of trash talking that is centered around ¨tu madre¨.
so futbol is a huge part of my life down here now. and it is how i have gotten to meet my community. and it is why i am periodically turning my head as i am writing this to some of my new names ( dan-yell, dan-i, dan-yell-ito, gringo, jefe, pana, amigo, ñaño) as my new friends pass by and see me through the steel bars of the internet cafe. some stop in. a couple of the younger kids have eagerly watched my type everyword.
i miss home. i miss home a lot. but today i am happy being a stranger in this strange world.
March 5, 2010
Babylon Burn Down
Updates
But you guys dont want to hear about how busy my life is here... Arent we all busy?
Lets talk about ¨Babylon Burn Down.¨ What does that even mean? It stands for hope, from the Judeo-Christian tradition, Rastafarian especially. It means that amist all the suffering in the world, there is hope. Babylon, will burn down. Martin Luther King Jr. said it the best in accepting his Nobel Peace Prize... ¨I believe that what self-centered men have torn down, Other-centered men can build up.¨ I am inspired that Garrett, David, Melissa, and Nora are heading down to Haiti in May. Jon is practicing microfinance (small loans to those oppressed by lack of resources and opportunity) in Kenya. God calls us all to bring down Babylon. There is so much work to be done in the US! First in our hearts (no bad mind, no hatred, no envy, no grudge) and then in our action. Out faith must have praxis, or it is a dead, and selfish spirituality. I have faith that if we all act in love and make a preferrential option for the poor, Babylon will burn down.
What is Babylon then? In Duran... Babylon reigns when I meet a child, living in a cane house with 13 other people, mainly chldren. She is 13, and we practice multiplacation in a park. She has a one year old on her lap and there is a 2 year old to her side. We try to focus. She wants to learn, she has been out of school for several years now. 13 years old and illiterate, so we practice math. We practice multiplying numbers by 2, and then by 10, the easiest. Then the neighbors come and interupt. They want attention. Then her mother calls, she has to go by food for dinner. This child has more responsiblilty than I do! Born into a life of struggle and poverty, will she ever has a second to be a child?
Or what about my friend who has played the game well. She is smart, beautiful, and ambitious. She grew up in Duran and was lucky enough to have the opportunity to go to school. She excelled. She was given another opportunity and got a scholorship to go to college. She excelled there. A bachelors degree! Coming from a child in Duran?! Finally, against all the odds, she made it, the promised land of having a college education. Today, she is unemployed. She has no connections and there are no jobs available. Imagine the heartbreak. You played the game right, worked your hardest, took advantage of every opportunity that came your way, and still no opportunity. The system just doesnt work.
Thats Babylon. And thats why we need to change.
Do we give up faith in a more just world and just focus on getting ours? Thats the temptation of our life. Thats Babylon Burn Down- God, give me the courage to dedicate a life for a more just world.
- I just led another retreat group from St. John´s Prep (Danver´s Mass). This was a great for us, and I feel that the highschoolers all left inspired to continue a life of faith and service
- Tutoring now in math, english, and FRENCH (I hoped it would come in handy down the line)
- Soccer everyday, on the weekdays we play on a concrete court at Semillas, the weekends we play on the street
- I used to eat lunch at home, making eggs or eating left overs. Now, Ive been eating at Damien House with the women, and often, Ill get pulled into a neighbors house for a second lunch, the standard is a bowl of soup and plate of chicken and rice.
- 100 degrees everyday
- Reading Liberation Theology (faith in making a prefferential option for the poor)
- Listening to Bob Marley (the same idea as above)
- Re-growing the beard
But you guys dont want to hear about how busy my life is here... Arent we all busy?
Lets talk about ¨Babylon Burn Down.¨ What does that even mean? It stands for hope, from the Judeo-Christian tradition, Rastafarian especially. It means that amist all the suffering in the world, there is hope. Babylon, will burn down. Martin Luther King Jr. said it the best in accepting his Nobel Peace Prize... ¨I believe that what self-centered men have torn down, Other-centered men can build up.¨ I am inspired that Garrett, David, Melissa, and Nora are heading down to Haiti in May. Jon is practicing microfinance (small loans to those oppressed by lack of resources and opportunity) in Kenya. God calls us all to bring down Babylon. There is so much work to be done in the US! First in our hearts (no bad mind, no hatred, no envy, no grudge) and then in our action. Out faith must have praxis, or it is a dead, and selfish spirituality. I have faith that if we all act in love and make a preferrential option for the poor, Babylon will burn down.
What is Babylon then? In Duran... Babylon reigns when I meet a child, living in a cane house with 13 other people, mainly chldren. She is 13, and we practice multiplacation in a park. She has a one year old on her lap and there is a 2 year old to her side. We try to focus. She wants to learn, she has been out of school for several years now. 13 years old and illiterate, so we practice math. We practice multiplying numbers by 2, and then by 10, the easiest. Then the neighbors come and interupt. They want attention. Then her mother calls, she has to go by food for dinner. This child has more responsiblilty than I do! Born into a life of struggle and poverty, will she ever has a second to be a child?
Or what about my friend who has played the game well. She is smart, beautiful, and ambitious. She grew up in Duran and was lucky enough to have the opportunity to go to school. She excelled. She was given another opportunity and got a scholorship to go to college. She excelled there. A bachelors degree! Coming from a child in Duran?! Finally, against all the odds, she made it, the promised land of having a college education. Today, she is unemployed. She has no connections and there are no jobs available. Imagine the heartbreak. You played the game right, worked your hardest, took advantage of every opportunity that came your way, and still no opportunity. The system just doesnt work.
Thats Babylon. And thats why we need to change.
Do we give up faith in a more just world and just focus on getting ours? Thats the temptation of our life. Thats Babylon Burn Down- God, give me the courage to dedicate a life for a more just world.
February 20, 2010
Culural Submersion
I swam in the river.
It was Carnival this week. 4 straight days of paint, mud, and waterballoons. Red, Green, Purple, Brown, Yellow. Everyone on the streets was covered in paint. We were ambushed with waterballoons if we were lucky. More commonly we were splashed with buckets of green and brown puddle water. And finally, we wrestled in the mud.
And thats how I ended up jumping into that polluted river.
Ive always enjoyed swimming in prestine waters from NH to Colorado, Australia and Hawaii too. But this river experience was special. There was something spiritual about jumping into that brown river with muck to my knees. I was with my new friends- all teenage dudes from the community. We were in it all together- The trash, the mosquitos, and the pollution are the reality here. But that doesnt stop anyone from enjoying God´s creation, no matter how abused by man.
It was Carnival this week. 4 straight days of paint, mud, and waterballoons. Red, Green, Purple, Brown, Yellow. Everyone on the streets was covered in paint. We were ambushed with waterballoons if we were lucky. More commonly we were splashed with buckets of green and brown puddle water. And finally, we wrestled in the mud.
And thats how I ended up jumping into that polluted river.
Ive always enjoyed swimming in prestine waters from NH to Colorado, Australia and Hawaii too. But this river experience was special. There was something spiritual about jumping into that brown river with muck to my knees. I was with my new friends- all teenage dudes from the community. We were in it all together- The trash, the mosquitos, and the pollution are the reality here. But that doesnt stop anyone from enjoying God´s creation, no matter how abused by man.
February 6, 2010
Half Baked
We are in the rainy season now. Crabs from the nearby river crawl around our unpaved roads. Tap-poles scurry around the puddles that are now permenantly on our street. Green grass is replacing grey rubble. Mud has replaced dust. Mosquitos are thriving, most noticably in our house. Children are on school vacation, and chaos ensues on the streets, at all times of the day. The heat is an average 39 degrees, Celsius. On my way out of the house, the heat and humidity make me look like Im coming back from the gym.
6 months down. 6 months to go.
During Tiffanys visit here, she asked me a good question. Why stay? Why not go home, to family and friends? To normal life. To real life? That question froze me for a minute. As I missed being home, I thought of my reasons for staying.
I am learning a lot of Spanish. I enjoy experiencing a new culture. I am growing a lot in my community life. I am reading, journaling, sharing meals, and sharing this experience with my friends down here. But all of these reasons for staying are for ME. And I didnt come down to Ecuador for me. I was ashamed that I would stay 6 more months to do some more ¨self-cultivation¨
So with a bit of time to reflect, I have been starting to see the spirit of my year in Ecuador. I am here to find myself, yes. But at the heart of finding myself, I am here to lose myself in my new community. In my new community that has been oppressed economically, socially, medically, and politcally. Life isnt easy, especially for the children. Just this week, a block away from my afterschool program, a 20 year old was shot 15 times after being robbed. 15 times. 15
In the midst of all this hate, corruption and oppression caused by governments, cultures, and our perceptions, I have been inspired that there still is hope. I find hope talking with Fortunato as he remenists his 90 years, 4 wives, and countless jobs as he smiles and makes a hammack at the hospital. I find hope sharing stories with Wilson, who has overcome both cancer and leprosy and still trucks on giving thanks to God. Or more simply, I am inspired by the enthusiasm over a meal with the women at the hosptal. I am bombarded with hugs, kisses, and playfulness that we recieve in return for making the after school program a safe place for kids to come and feel validated. I find joy by playing soccer with Ricardo, Daniel, Tyrone and the children in the neighborhood. Or simply shaking hands and taking a minute to talk with a wino on the corner of the street. And thats the paradox, by being completely available for others, I find myself.
So with 6 months left, Im asking God for the grace to be present to every moment here. To enjoy the ride. To play with the children on the street who are catching tad-poles and crabs. To eat lunch at our neighbors house. To try that new fruit. To try sardine soup, cow intestines, or anything else that comes my way. To listen to reggaetone all day and salsa all night. To play soccer on the street. To embrace the crazy place I live in and see, smell, feel, touch, and taste its beauty. To give thanks for today and have hope for tomorrow. To keep following the positive vibrations.
6 months down. 6 months to go.
During Tiffanys visit here, she asked me a good question. Why stay? Why not go home, to family and friends? To normal life. To real life? That question froze me for a minute. As I missed being home, I thought of my reasons for staying.
I am learning a lot of Spanish. I enjoy experiencing a new culture. I am growing a lot in my community life. I am reading, journaling, sharing meals, and sharing this experience with my friends down here. But all of these reasons for staying are for ME. And I didnt come down to Ecuador for me. I was ashamed that I would stay 6 more months to do some more ¨self-cultivation¨
So with a bit of time to reflect, I have been starting to see the spirit of my year in Ecuador. I am here to find myself, yes. But at the heart of finding myself, I am here to lose myself in my new community. In my new community that has been oppressed economically, socially, medically, and politcally. Life isnt easy, especially for the children. Just this week, a block away from my afterschool program, a 20 year old was shot 15 times after being robbed. 15 times. 15
In the midst of all this hate, corruption and oppression caused by governments, cultures, and our perceptions, I have been inspired that there still is hope. I find hope talking with Fortunato as he remenists his 90 years, 4 wives, and countless jobs as he smiles and makes a hammack at the hospital. I find hope sharing stories with Wilson, who has overcome both cancer and leprosy and still trucks on giving thanks to God. Or more simply, I am inspired by the enthusiasm over a meal with the women at the hosptal. I am bombarded with hugs, kisses, and playfulness that we recieve in return for making the after school program a safe place for kids to come and feel validated. I find joy by playing soccer with Ricardo, Daniel, Tyrone and the children in the neighborhood. Or simply shaking hands and taking a minute to talk with a wino on the corner of the street. And thats the paradox, by being completely available for others, I find myself.
So with 6 months left, Im asking God for the grace to be present to every moment here. To enjoy the ride. To play with the children on the street who are catching tad-poles and crabs. To eat lunch at our neighbors house. To try that new fruit. To try sardine soup, cow intestines, or anything else that comes my way. To listen to reggaetone all day and salsa all night. To play soccer on the street. To embrace the crazy place I live in and see, smell, feel, touch, and taste its beauty. To give thanks for today and have hope for tomorrow. To keep following the positive vibrations.
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